I haven’t posted in a bit.. I’ve been feeling kind of out of it. I’ve got seasonal allergies.. they are not mild – they are over the top; I felt so congested and gross, just eww..🤧

But finally I’m starting to feel like a human being again and praise the Lord for that literally.

It’s almost time for our cruise vacation! I want to say this correctly – originally when my wife sent the 2 possible cruises we wanted to go on to our travel agent, we made a firm choice but we had a miscommunication and the wrong cruise was booked…doh!

But we were able to reverse it and get our actual cruise booked so we made an initial mistake, hence the reason for the confusion on the cruise date, the original date we had was for the incorrect cruise – its not that the correct cruise date changed, they don’t change dates.

I just hope we get/stay healthy when we leave for our trip. Its supposed to be cold, I’m one of the few people I know that love cold weather. I like snow, and in summer – I like cold (but not raining) overcast days where you can hike or walk as far as you want and you won’t get sweaty or tired. In that type of weather, I feel like a million dollars.

I want to learn about the ship but not too much, if that makes sense.. I want to do everything that is fun, but I still want surprises and not be too scripted.

I don’t really like excursions for that reason.. its just too organized and I like to be a little reckless sometimes. It like if you planned your whole next week and didn’t deviate even one little bit – that sounds like the opposite of fun to me. No spontaneity is a total buzz kill.

The Celebrity has a great cafe, lots of places to do hardcore walking, a library (that I mentioned in an earlier post). and many other activities to enjoy.

I love people and want the best for them but the truth is I’m an extreme introvert.. if I was an more introverted, I’d never talk to anyone 😂.. you can’t imagine the relief I have when I go an an elevator and there is no one in it. I don’t know why I have such social anxiety, but the more people around me, the more uncomfortable I feel. If I at work – its different, when I’m helping people, I don’t think about the fact I’m surrounded by people but when I start thinking about it – I start to jam up.

A cruise ship is a different story, nobody knows you – there is no definitive agenda.. just people enjoying the ship doing their own thing, and for some reason – that takes the pressure off me.

I guess one way of thinking about it is that I know why God put me here; some people wonder what purpose they have on this planet and struggle to find it. I was like that a long time ago when I was in my early twenties, but now I know what I’m here for. What I am best at is being the person you never see, in the background, making things happen, doing what I’m supposed to do, exactly at the time I’m supposed to do it – whatever that might be.. not because I’m good, not because I’m worthy, only because God gave me the grace to succeed at helping people. People at my work think I have a superhuman ability to solve things, they say that it’s like magic but that isn’t it at all, that is what God’s power looks like in our lives when viewed from the outside in. If the Lord would be against me, everything I would do would fail, it’s not me (my ability) at all.

I’m grateful God has made a place for me and I’m going to do everything I can to honor that.

Jason